i wonder what i'll be when i grow up.

it's a thought dreamt of across the world, and a never-ending thought at that -- from princesses and astronauts to simply at peace and in love. absolutely, once you have a child, you consider the concept that you never really stop growing. now the wonder is just all the more infinite. in taking the time to watch their eyelids flutter as you're snuggled up in bed, you can so magically feel their sweetest dreams coming true.

but, what exactly do you wonder, little one? is it about the happily ever after with a white picket fence and brothers and sisters that i can't give you? or, is it as innocent as the whisper of rise and shine, time for preschool? (and, yes, hot dogs can be for breakfast ... )

it dawned on me the other day that i'm in my (eek!) late twenties. what i hope for in my thirties is significantly different from just a few years ago, let alone the childhood dream. nothing in this world was gonna stop me from being a storm chaser, yet i became a hair and makeup artist. oh, but now what i wouldn't give to have a book published! in my dreams, have i actually started writing it instead of just blabbing about it. once upon a time, i even wanted to be a soccer mom of six. (oh, lawd!) life with my little miss has been more than enough fulfillment, nevermind the extraordinary satisfaction that comes along with being a best friend, a part of my family, a stylist, a self-proclaimed good time, comedian and know-it-all, an all-things-artsy enthusiast, a risk taker, a survivor and (fingers crossed) positive role model.

as i reflect on all the whats i've wanted to be in the last 27 years, i see that life should really be about the who. more than anything, when i grow up, i wanna be someone worth admiring. i dream of being who my child wants to be when she grows up.

xo! e